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| I just want to be normal 2003-05-15 @ 21:35 It's officially now, H refuse me to go on interrail. I hate this. She ruin my life as well as I do it. They refuse me to have fun! I've tried to do everything "right". I have even gained some weight. I'm up to disgusting XX pounds. I binge all the time. My weight is going so fast uphill. I'm shocked. My mum is like a hawk, so I can't puke, and they did a search through my room, so then they found my laxatives and diet pills. Wow, this is like a nightmare. It's like all my fears come true. NOOOOOOOOOOOO Been with my best friend Cecilie today. She is so sweet. She support me and I really feel she care about me. She also want to go on vacation with me. We are planning a trip to the Mediterranean countries. But it's a catch with it. Cecilie don't want to go if my weigt is any lower than 100. She says she can't take the responsibility for me if I'm "too" thin, and I don't blame her. So I have decided to try to go up to 101 pounds... This is going to be so hard, but I really want to do it. I just want to be normal Been at school today. Haven't been there this week... It was ok, but we are going to have a project work in Norwegian, in Norwegian literary history after second world war. Wow, this is going to be so boring. We have to interpret poems from a decided period, for example from the functionalism. We also get a picture and a novel we have to interpret. I'm sure I'm at a group with people I don't even like. People that don't do a damn thing. I bet I have to do all the work! Fuck! I hate this, and I hate this fucking school. I just want vacation now. I'm so tired from everything! |
>>diary ..newest ..older ..rings ..links >>me ..profile ..fans ..pictures >>contact ..notes ..guestbook >>credits ..host ..pixiedesigns Today I feel: I wanna have control I wanna perfect body I wanna perfect soul I want you to notice When I'm not around So fucking special I wish I was special But I'm a creep I'm a weirdo What the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here. ~Creep - Radiohead~ |
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